What is your secret?

Do you have a secret? Yes I do and I will never tell.  Funny thing about the south and secrets because we all have “skeletons in our closets” and sweep our cat pooh under the rug because we know for fact that our houses are never clean. That is what is called old time evangelicalism. Those antiquities of petrified cat pooh and fossilized bones are found years later by some descendant doing a genealogy research on the family. Our secrets do come out of the closet and blow out from under the rug eventually.

(1Timothy 1:15) “The saying is trustworthy and deserving of full acceptance, that Christ came into the world to save sinners, of whom I am the foremost.”

Those secrets are so often our sins.

Those secrets may be horrible experiences.

Do not fool yourself into thinking that you are not hiding something from anyone—you are only hurting your chances to be free.  Get it off your chest and forgive yourself and talk to God about it. Then it is no longer hidden.

The horrible experience secrets are the hardest to get off your chest. You might ask why forgive yourself? Well you just should. Deep in our hearts sometimes we feel responsible for bad things that happened to us. If we forgive ourselves, then we admonish any doubt in our conscious state.

I once recently spoke of a secret that I had kept for more than 21 years. When my son was 3 months old in 1990, I had a serious gallbladder attack. I rushed to the local hospital thinking my guts were being torn apart. They administered a very strong pain killer which sent my alertness into another world. I was wheeled into the imaging department. I was dressed in hospital gown. A man came over to me and pulled my gown open and felt my stomach to ask me where the pain was. I never saw his face but I heard his voice and saw the necklaces around his neck. I saw them enough to remember as he fondled my breast. I called for help and shushed me and said I was dreaming. I remember him putting his hands in between my legs and then I fought him as much as my conscious state would allow. He stopped because I started swatting at him and making a lot of noise. I wanted to kick him and felt that I couldn’t.  He covered me up quickly because another person entered the room. I remember him saying that I was fretful because of the medication they had given me in the emergency room. Everyone male that entered my hospital room for the next 4 day stay, I immediately looked at their neck. I never saw him again.  

I didn’t report it until the nightmare started about a week later. They were horrible. I was 2 months into being 30 years old when that happened.  Needless to say no one in my family found out about it until this very night.  I told my son (of course he is no longer three month’s old but in his 20s.) He was listened intently with a great deal of concern for his aging mother.

I remembered this incident when I started thinking about secrets we store. I had to forgive myself over this because I my ignorant mind I thought may I had provoked the attack so I asked God to forgive me. But you know what I didn’t provoke it or cause it.   But the ultimate solace came from the word of God.

So what secrets we have in our “closed door closet” or “under our rug” let them out. If you never tell anyone, confess them privately to God. The union of the Holy Trinity will ease your pain and suffering.

May each of you be blessed and nestled safely in the arms of God.

If you need me to pray for you, leave a message, or email at juliaburns253@gmail.com

You will be missed but never forgotten.

This I believe that the American Dream is not one of material success but to leave a legacy, some proof that we have been here, something so simple that we often overlook. The neat thing about this is a child’s touch, a mother kissing her babies check when they are 30. A father’s kiss on the forehead, when he covers his little one who is 20 and home for the weekend just to do dirty laundry. It is a dog or a cat running to see their human parent when they arrive from work. Sometimes jumping up and down, barking wildly or meowing to let their presence be known. These are the loved wonderful things that are truly ours, our memories. “Naked I came from my mother’s womb, and naked I will depart. The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away, may the name of the Lord be praised.” (Job 1:21) Our simple legacy is that we are the memory in someone’s heart and soul that will never be forgotten. Let us make sure that it’s a good memory that we leave in the minds of others—a pleasant memory that will wipe out all the “negative” parts of us that exist. Our prayers are simple today. Let us pray for everyone that needs a prayer—let us pray for each other.  Let us pray for eternal happiness and a settled spirit, for healing, for love, for strength, for perseverance.  From this day forward, tell someone everyday for the remainder of your life that you love them. God bless you all and keep us safe cradled in God’s arm.   

Mrs. Larry (Patsy) Keating went home on 4th March 2013. She will be missed but never forgotten for the love she shared on this earth. 

Not Guaranteed Tomorrow.

Mathew 24:36—“No one knows about the day or hour, not even the angels in heaven nor the SON, but only the Father.” That is the most powerful statement that I have ever read about the life in which we live. We have children and we raise them to the best of our ability. We honor or parents and try to care them in their golden years. Then the cycle repeats itself. It is centrifugal because as stated HE is the beginning and the end, the Alpha and the Omega.  

We often sit at the sea shore watching the waves come in and reflect on the wonderful time of life in awe. GOD created it for us. We grow up, get jobs and become productive citizens. We are surrounded by all these wonderful things, bobbles I will call them (cars, houses, and utterly fantastic trinkets). There really is nothing that belongs to us here. We claim ownership but it isn’t really, not even our own bodies. To prove a biological fact, when our skin dies (not us but the skin), it flakes off and turns to dust. Therefore it returns to nature and who is the great creator of that nature?  None other than GOD!

In Genesis 2:7, “HE formed man from the dust of the earth and he breathed life into his nostrils.” What more proof is needed that GOD exists? We came into this life with nothing, and we go out with nothing other than our memories.

A lady that I know will eventually come home to God if it is his wish. It may not be today and it may not be tomorrow. I call her a lady because she has always represented herself as such in my eyes. The woman I speak of is the wife of a former teacher. They are in pain at the thought of loosing someone from the earth, as we all are. Yet the ANGELS of GOD dance around us more than what we think. Psalms 91:11.   We are not guaranteed tomorrow. We are just here in the now, this moment, millisecond of feeling and compassion we have for each other.

So…..before you take your next breath, think: why are you breathing? What is your purpose, your existence here on earth? Are you really doing everything spiritually you can do for that ultimate high...GOD’s high? Are you willing to drink up everything HE has to offer? Read his words and get closer to GOD. Give him your all. Turn it all over to the blood of the Lamb. Jesus symbolically dies for us every year. Now is the time.

If you are in need of a prayer, contact me, leave a comment. I will pray for you.

GOD bless you and keep you safe from harm.

Just say the word.

If you have a need for prayer. If you are afraid to say something. If you need me to pray for you. Just say the word. I have a need in the comments. When I read it, I will pray. If you need someone, a friend to listen. Just say the word in the comments. If you need a shoulder just say the word.

I will pray for you...just the word...

Take Stock, Inventory.

Great Orations of American History often go unnoticed as years start to pass and they fade into the history books in which we are forced to read as young people in high school and sometimes we never read or hear them at all. This week’s blog is dedicated to inserts from great people that you never thought would have spoken such wonderful words with meanings that a grand to each and every one of use born in America.

“It is probable that in no period of human history has more pains been taken with the education of women that was taken in Greece; in all their accomplishments, in learning, in music, in dance, in poetry, in literature, in history, in philosophy, even in statesmanship, women were very highly educated—provided they were to live the lives of courtesans. The fact is simply astounding that in the age of Pericles intelligence and accomplishment were associated with impudicity, and were the signs of it, and that ignorance and modesty were associated ideas. If a woman would have the credit of purity and uprightness in social relations she must be the drudge of the household, and if any woman appeared radiant in person beauty and accomplished, fitted for conversation with statesmen and philosophers, it was taken for granted that she was accessible. We have thrown on this subject in the New Testament, not well understood hitherto. That noble old Jewish book, the Bible reveals a higher station to womanhood in the ancient Israelitish days than in any other Oriental land, and form the beginning of the Old Testament to the end of it there is no limitation of a woman’s rights, her functions and her position. She actually was public in the sense of honour and function; she went with unveiled face if she pleased; she partook of religious services and led them; she was judged, she was even a leader of armies; and you shall not find, either in the Old Testament or in the New, one word that limits the position of a woman till you come to the Apostle’s writing about Grecian women, for only in “Corinthians” and in the writing of Paul to Timothy, who was the Bishop of the Greek Churches in Asia Minor, do you find any limitation made. Knowing full well what this public sentiment was at the time Paul said: ‘Suffer not a woman to teach in your assemblies; let your women keep silence.’ Why? Because all, in that corrupt public sentiment, looking upon intelligent teachers in the Christian Church, would have gone away and said: ‘This is done of licentiousness, women are teaching:’ and in public sentiment that associated intelligence and immorality it is not strange that prudentially and temporarily, women were restrained. But that has all gone; woman has risen; not only in intelligence, she is the universal teacher not alone in the household but in the school; not alone in common schools but in every grade; till she has attained professorships in universities and even presidency in  women’s colleges—at least in our land. She is the right hand of the charities of the Church; she walks unblushing with an unveiled face where men do walk; and she is not only permitted in the great orthodox churches of New England to speak in meeting, but when they send her abroad, ordained to teach the Gospel to the heathen, there she is permitted to preach. When they come home women may still teach in a hall, but not often in a church, for dear old men there are yet so conservative that they are reading through gold spectacles their Bibles, and says: ‘I suffer not a woman to preach.’”  Henry Ward Beecher

Beecher, Henry Ward. Lectures and Orations. Fleming H Revell. New York: 1913. Pg 97-99.

[Thayer Award] “Coming from a profession, I have served so long, and a people I have loved so well, it fills me with an emotion I cannot express. But this award is not intended primarily to honor a personality, but to symbolize a great moral code—the code of conduct and chivalry of those who guard this beloved land of culture and ancient descent. That is the animation of this medallion. For all eyes and for all time, it is an expression of the ethics of the American soldier. That I should be integrated in this way with so noble an ideal arouses a sense of rind and yet of humility which will be with me always. Duty, Honor, Country: Those three hallowed words reverently dictate what you ought to be, what you can be, what you will be. They are your rallying points: to build courage when courage when courage seems to fail; to regain faith when there seems to be little cause for faith; to create hope when hope becomes forlorn. Unhappily, I possess neither that eloquence of diction, that poetry of imagination, not that brilliance of metaphor to tell you all that they mean. The unbelievers will say they are but words but a slogan, but a flamboyant phrase. Every pedant, every demagogue, every cynic, every hypocrite, every troublemaker, and I am sorry to say, some other of an entirely different character, will try to downgrade them even to the extent of mockery and ridicule. But these are some of the things they do: they build your basic character. They mold you for your future roles as the custodians of the nation’s defense. They make you strong enough to know when you are weak and brave enough to face yourself when you are afraid. They teach you to be proud and unbending in honest failure but humble and gentle in success; not to substitute words for actions, not to seek the path of comfort, but to face the stress and spur of difficulty and challenge; to learn to stand up in the storm but to have compassion on those who fall; to master yourself before you seek to master others; to have a heart that is clean, a goal that is high; to learn to laugh, yet never forget how to weep; to reach into the future yet never neglect the past; to be serious yet never to take yourself too seriously; to be modest so that you will remember the simplicity of true greatness the open mind of true wisdom, the meekness of true strength. They give you a temper of the will, a quality of imagination, vigor of the emotions, a freshness of the deep springs of life, a temperamental predominance of courage over timidity, of an appetite for adventure over love of ease. They create in your heart the sense of wonder, the unfailing hope of what next, and the joy of inspiration of life. They teach you in this way to be an officer and a gentleman. And what sort of soldiers are those you are to lead? Are they reliable? Are they brave? Are they capable of victory? Their story is known to all of you. It is the story of the American man-at-arms.”

General Douglass McArthur. “Duty Honour Country”. New York: 1962. http://www.americanrhetoric.com/speeches/douglasmacarthurthayeraward.html  (accessed 20^th February 2013.)

These are just two great inserts that were very charged! What has happened to our society? Do we not have great men or women to stand at the pulpit or the helm and speak, to mold the hearts of our countrymen anymore?  Have we all forgotten what it is important in our lives? We were once a great nation, but as I have aged it doesn’t necessarily seem that we are great anymore. We are hated outside our shores for being lazy and contemptuous.  What was once our ally’s now spit on what is important, the flag of our nation. Yet, our government has failed to make the destruction of what we hold so dear a crime on our own shores. For we are a nation that cries bloody tears from the shores where our ancestors have once stood proud and protecting of this great nation we call America. We have lost our way.

We are now a nation of confused people that is unable to understand the truth from falsehoods. We are a nation that has become ignorant in the hearts of our young. It is the truth that we cannot back track into the history of our past, but we can repair the future of what is to come and point it into a righteous direction. Have we lost the original meaning of faith? We still in essence have a moment of silence, which gives us the option of prayer in our schools, we still stand and say pledge of allegiance, we still have all our civil rights in order to give us our liberties and freedoms and yet we still walk upon soil afraid of the unknown. Is it because we say we are believers and yet follow a crowd walking through the motions?   

This is where we must take stock of ourselves. Hebrews 11:3, “By faith we understand that the universe was formed at God’s command, so that what is seen was not made out of what was visible. (6)And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he reward those who earnestly seek him…(14) People say such things show that they are looking for a country of their own. (15) If they had been thinking of the country they had left, they would have had opportunity to return. (16) Instead, they were longing for a better country—a heavenly one. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared a city for them. (40) God had planned something better for us so that only together with us would they be made perfect.”

Do we still have the faith? Oh there are so many that say yes, but do you really mean it? Do we have hope or have we used the word that hope is warned out?  What are we going to do to about it because the overall essence of our society shows that many have lost that faith in God and replaced it with manmade objects? Are our social statuses so important that we look the other way when our brother asks us to share a dime? That dime is a tithe—a tenth (being represented by 100% of a US Dollar bill); that tithe is also 10 minutes or every hour or 10 hours of every day or 10 days out of every month, or 10 months out of every year or 10 years out of every life. It matters not. But, do not ever mistake that a tithe means to write out a check and be done with it. A minister once said, it is not a sin to be wealthy but it is a sin to die wealthy.

It made a lot of sense because we were born with nothing (naked) not knowing. We should die with nothing (naked) not knowing. If God steals us, our very life, our souls, our existence, God has no use for our world money in Heaven or anything else of this world in this life. The day to take stock in ourselves is today. It is now. 

The Cabbage Patch to Creation

I was born in a much simpler time according to society – the latter 1950s. But, our society was on the brink of change with the fast approaching 60s. I remember asking my mother where babies come from and she said,

“The stork delivered them to the cabbage patch. When they are ripe, parents pick their children, they are taken to the hospital cleaned up and given to the parents.”

Well as a little child back then it seemed plausible because I don’t ever recall seeing a pregnant woman. And if I did, I probably thought nothing of it because all bellies are round.

I remember learning in church that the Bible has all the answers and we should turn our life over to Jesus and God or burn in all hell fire and damnation. I was really scared because fire hurt. My brother’s did that thing where they walked down the long isle at Church by themselves and turned it over to these people mentioned in the Bible. I did not want to burn alive and wanted to see the streets lined with gold in the sky; that place called Heaven. I wanted to walk hand and hand with Jesus.

One day I walked down that isle, by myself and confessed I believe and I accept him in my heart. The minister (that very night) put his hand over my face, pinched my nose, and plunged me backwards into the cold water (in the blue painted cement and glass enclosure) behind the choir seating behind the pulpit. I also received two new gifts. My parents gave me a Bible that was pretty, blue, and had a lot of pictures on it. The minister gave me a Bible also that was little and really cool. I had two of them. I took them to school to help me in my memory verses for class. You had to find the verse, look it up, and tell what it meant—all from memory. That was the total summation of my reading the Bible which went on 1st grade until 8th grade, and then occasionally in high school and up until I was about 28 years old. After all I was saved, repented, sinned and repented again. Is not that what good Baptist are suppose to do?

Only as I got older, the year I turned 40, did I really start to read the Bible. I had read some in Religion 101 in college though, but 40 years old was the year I really started to get into the Bible. I, also, started to be curious about other religions. I checked out Catholicism. As a result, they gave me a really nice Catholic Bible with my name on front because I took all these classes in Catechism. What history I had learned and wanted to know more.

In my latter 40s, I went to work for a hotel. One of the managers and administrative assistants had a Bible study going on during their lunch periods with several people from the downtown area. I started attending these and discovered I KNOW NOTHING!

It took me 52 years, but here I am getting my masters at a Christian University finding myself getting into the Bible more and more and being concerned about people’s souls. I have this strong feeling and it is getting stronger to want to study more and more, to question everything. I started with Genesis in the Septuagint, which is similar but different than any other modern version printed. When I say modern version, I mean anything printed after King James Version.

It has taken me 2 weeks to get through the first seven chapters of Genesis in the Septuagint. I have really been taking Genesis apart, technically going over every aspect of it. I discovered things that I suppose I just overlooked before. The Bible is a text that was put together by order of King James. Without research into his life, I can only assume it was done just to leave some type of positive legacy aspect reign. In King James Version as well as others, it would seem as if two different inspired authors scribed Genesis because the flow is not literarily smooth. This indicates that there are possibly two different creations. If you read the Septuagint Genesis, there is only one author scribe because it flows very evenly in style. The word combination “author scribe” means that God was the author through the human writer.

What really is intriguing to me is Genesis 4 and the life of Cain, his mark, and the 7 vengeances placed upon Cain. There is a variation of spelling in the Septuagint as compared to the Bible. As I kept reading and studying, I get to where Cain killed Abel. The Septuagint (sort of) indicates why God is displeased with Cain’s offering. (Hebrews 11, in the King James Version, gives a comprehensive answer.) There is also indication in the Septuagint that there are other people on the earth. It is clearly indicated in the conversation between God and Cain. (Cain has already killed Abel at this point.) Their conversation is one on one, face to face. This indicates that Cain can see and talk to HIM. Adam and Eve at this point, really haven’t been cast out of Eden, just from the center of it. Cain was sent out and could never see God again. There has never been any mention in the Bible or Septuagint as to whether Adam and Eve had any other children than Cain and Abel at this time.

The assumptions that our theological fathers might have come up with there being other children in Genesis 4 does not make sense. According to theologians Cain was supposes to have married a sister or a niece. I know this is not totally taboo because Abraham married his ½ sister in Genesis 20:12. Then the Laws of God came down in Leviticus 18:9, restricting this type of association.

However, at no time did God or the author scribe of Genesis indicate any other children until 230 years later after Cain had left the region. This shows up in Genesis 5. Keep in mind when Cain was grown, married. When Adam was 230 years old he had Seth. 700 Years had passed and he had other sons and daughters. In Genesis 5, Eve is no longer mentioned. In the 5th Chapter was the first mention of the years or ages of a man, Adam. I tried to look and justify my thoughts as being incorrect and I honestly could not find anything disputing why I thought the way I did in the Bible. The only other plausible thought would be that Genesis 4 went on with time, and Genesis 5 might have gone back to where Adam, Cain, and Abel were younger and Abel was possibly living in Genesis 5.

What really peaked my learning about the creation period was Genesis 6:2 in the Septuagint as well as the King James Version. “Now when the sons of God saw the daughter of humans, that they were fair, they took wives for themselves of all that they chose.” But this is an unknown factor. God does not really want us to know everything as discussed in the beginning of Genesis with Adam—pertaining to eating the forbidden fruit. But I will continue with my studies and learn more.

Acts 17:26 And, hath made of one blood all nations of men for to dwell on all the face of the earth, and hath determined the times before appointed, and the bounds of their habitation.

God made that one blood because he was the breath of life. Do not ever forget that he made it and he can take it away at his discretion. That means, a Muslim person is our brother, a Jewish person our brother, a Christian is our brother, and those lost is our brother. Keep warmth in your hearts for our brothers.

Hebrews 11:1-4, 6 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. For by it the elders obtained a good report. Through faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God that things which are seen were not made of things which do appear. By faith Abel offered unto God a more excellent sacrifice than Cain, buy which he obtained witness that he was righteous, God testifying of his gifts: and by it he being dead yet speaketh. But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is rewarder of them that diligently see him.

Meaning: Only through faith should we give God our best, our first. We understand that we would not have a soul without him so technically it is HIS. Strive for what your purpose in life through God’s terms, not mans. We have to abide by the physical aspects of life according to the Bible, but our soul should 100% be God’s and our actions – give it your best shot to behave the way God wants us. Keep the faith that God exist always.

If you have unspoken needs I will pray for you.

Valentine's Day.

Yesterday was Valentine's Day. We often do not celebrate in my household because of "put away baggage." When I say put away, I mean things that have discussed in a prior time of my life that ended. Although I encourage my children to express their feelings on the day if they so wish. They do by being more respectful to themselves and to each other.

While they were at school the other day, I happened to wonder over to the store where I buy little things from, like cleaning supplies, toilet paper, odds and ends. It is a store called "$1.09" store. Great products that  a really inexpensive. Their jewelry is real, fake, expensive and inexpensive. Of course I am female and every female loves some type of jewelry. I am human and no different. My favorite of his bobbles is Brazilian Gold. The jeweler and I happened to strike up a wonderfully long conversation. This young Pakistanian and I spent an hour discussing God and humanity. The discussion was over the souls of people and how there is only ONE GOD. Where he is Muslim and chooses Mohammed, I am Christian and I chose Jesus. This was more of an investigation discussion whereas he nor I tried to convert each other but to learn about our different cultures in life. That is what is enjoyable about it. To be able to discuss God in HIS infinite wisdom and plans he has for each of us. There is nothing any finer than to discuss the love of OUR God. He is our personal God--there is plenty of him to go around. 

For what ever which religion anyone chooses to follow -- whether it be the path of Judaism, Muslim, or Christianity or any other ...we must never lose the sight that there is but ONE GOD. That is most important. 

It is up to us to decide from there whether or not we will treat our fellow man with humane treatment. To kill and make a point for religion is within the violation of the commandments. To spew hate harms ones eternal soul. To remember there is good and bad in every aspects of life is important and religion is not free of those good and bad aspects. For example there are Muslims, Christians, and Jews that will kill to make a point of their superiority. That is when they have failed to see that the only superiority is that of God. As King David, Job and many others have mentioned, HE knew us in the womb. He breathed life for the wonderful aspects of biology to take over the female vessel. Then he turned that soul over to earthly parents to nurture, and see to the part of raising that child. When we as earthly parents fail--when we get off track, we turn out a person who is misguided. This is where we often fail to openly talk to or discuss the horrors of life in general. 

Of course psychologists would say, only discuss what is age appropriate with the child. Well keep up with the appropriate emotional age of your child or children and not the physical age. I am a Christian and believe in Jesus but I have taught my children to respect their fellow man and make no jest or negative connotation toward any other religion but beware of paganism, witch craft, and Satan worshipers. Learn but never participate and never go into a darker side of life. I gave them an analogy on this subject. Put on all black clothing, long sleeves, boots, and hat. Go out and sit in 100 degree weather, no shade, no water. After 30 minutes tell me how do feel? It is boiling hot and your skin feels like it is on fire. It becomes difficult to breathe; think about living that way for eternity after we are deceased. Without God in our lives you soul will become very hot and unable to breathe and it will feel the heat and fire blaring on the skin. 

Now do you want to be in that position? Do you love yourself enough to make a change? Then do it now, without waiting or hesitating. The door is always open.