What I am about to share

What I am about to share is some pure feelings of anger.

(1)     The insurance that we are forced to buy has put my son in further debt. He went to get a physical to be told he is healthy. That physical with the insurance has put him in debt of almost $1,000 in less than 15 days. His insurance is equally comparable than what his company offered on the same policy. He has insurance, schools loans, cell bill, out of pocket expenses for school, uniforms, and other expenses. He has to live at home or on the streets. He finishes school in a few months. He hopes to make more money to pay off his debts. He is not getting anything free on his insurance. He, like many, has to pay dearly out of pocket. Welcome to life in America. He, like many young people, is graduating from college with financial debt it takes many others years to accumulate.

(2)     Insurances are generally paid out of pocket by the individual person. Most policies cover birth control, medically necessary terminations, medically necessary penile implants, and sterilizations (generally) for men and or women. So what is the issue? A private company is not a religious organization. Oh wait, this is a test case. Waist the tax payer’s money to test a case. Oh I forget we do this in America. Too many individual rights will destroy a country. If you don’t believe me, then go back to school and learn political history. Viagra helps what? Yet we want to complain about “welfare”—no condoms, no birth control pills, no teaching abstinence. Well when your child dies from sexually transmitted diseases because of no condoms and no having the proper information about sex, then you might so something about it. Close your minds to this issue and you may have a child who can’t tell you they went out, experimented and caught syphilis until it is too late; or, about a teenage pregnancy. They may not tell you they have HIV/aids either. Do not start the biblical or the Christian thing with me: “If we raise our children right in the Lord and the Bible…..” Children have minds of their own regardless of what we teach them. Fact of life and fact in the Bible.

(3)     I am tired of pharmaceutical companies, the medical professional managerial elitist, medical insurance company elitist, lobbyists, and the federal government telling me what is and is not healthy.

I find out after numerous years, the study has changed on one of my medicines. I now am not taking it correctly. I took a medicine for many years. A new study stated that, unchecked that medicine causes diabetes. I got diabetes when I was thin.

Six years later my weight is the cause of my diabetes. Twenty years ago my weight for my height was 120 pounds. When I weighed 138 pounds, I looked sick. Now my BMI is 5 million times what it should be. Use artificial sweetener to enhance the taste of foods.

That one artificial sweetener has cancer causing agents more than a pack of cigarettes or a 12 ounce steak injected with chemicals that a person is normally allergic too. (Petrochemicals or fungi)

Do not eat red meat or eggs, because it causes the cholesterol to rise. We only get 3% of our cholesterol from dietary. What hurts is when you talk to a family member (a veteran medical professional) and tell them the problem (because they ask) they laugh and say that I need to reduce my intake to 1,000 calories a day.

Then you are told, “I am not eating right.” I need to eat 1,400 calories a day to make my metabolism kick in. Then I need to be on a liquid diet to flush my toxins. Then I need this and then I need that. Have you ever tried exercising with no cartilage in one hip joint or both knee joints?

Take this pill for pain, this pill for swelling and get over it. No pain no gain. You can lift weights sitting down. How does one lift weights with severe arthritis and thumbs that are twisted inward?

Oh wait I forgot to mention taking this pill and the side affect damages that organ. Half of these side affect’s were not in the pamphlets when I took the medicine.

Oh wait. I forgot something really important. Five years of steadily taking Prednisone causes a lot of future health problems. Well, that wasn’t known in the 60s, 70s, or early 80s. (Three five year intervals for allergies)

The killer of all: “I am depressed because I am in pain. I am in pain because I am depressed.” That is a two to four pill sentence not to mention a psychiatric stay because a person cries over the excruciating pain of 4 herniated disks, a fractured hip that wasn’t discovered until two years later-after it healed, and fibroid tumors in the uterus—causing menstruation every two weeks. Meanwhile the pills for the depression want to make you slit your throat or cut you wrist.  Yet, you have been told, it is all in my mind. Utter frustration. Take a pill to cure it.  

(4)     I am tired of people posting pictures of overweight people in wheel chairs and laughing about it. The bigger the person the bigger the joke. If they shop at Wal-Mart they are the brunt of the joke.

       

         You do not know why they are overweight.

         You don’t know the reason they are in a wheel chair.

         You do not know the reason they shop at Wal-Mart.

         You do not pay their bills.  So who are you to criticize?

Wait if you are shopping at Wal-Mart to see these types of people, then you are just as broke and need to save a dime as everyone else.  Not everyone can shop and spend a lot of money on their groceries. They afford only the clothes that will fit them and no one has the “gal” to tell them the truth that it may not fit or doesn’t look good. It is the only place that I know of that you get sub-standard grown vegetables that a person can afford.

I saw one picture of a woman with her belly hanging below her dress hem. Well that happened to my mother once. Her stomach muscles are shot and skin hangs. Once in her wheel chair it hung until I pointed it out to her. She was so embarrassed it caused tears. Since that happen, it is very hard to get her to leave her house.

(5)     Those pictures that are posted that we laugh at are someone’s mother; father, brother, sister, child or spouse. That someone has feelings. What would you do if someone took a really uncomplimentary picture of you, put so stupid subtitle on it and posted it all over the internet? How would you feel? Are you making fun of other people to feel better about yourself?

(6)     Did it ever occur to anyone that the reason we are unhappy, broke, sick, and over weight is because we want to make life better? We have cars, air pollution, time clocks, chemically injected foods, medicines, chemically enhanced vegetables, poor government, poor consumerism, chemicals in the water, over rated media, lack of good media, and so forth that is causing our very destruction. Money, exercise, medicine, diet, and so forth are not going to stop us from dying. It will stop us from living if we don’t change our ways.

(7)     My anger is now gone. I force myself to joke about me to make me smile. This is my only outlet for anger. Writing. I can’t speak anger, because my speaking spontaneously doesn’t come out correctly.

(8)     There are days I don’t even remember my professor’s names. There are days, I can’t even figure out how to work a can opener. I am not dead yet. I prayed last night, because this was a very bad week. I cried Saturday until Tuesday night. I had a fight with a pine tree cock roach, hurt my knee really bad. The swelling is finally down and the pain is subsiding. I cried Wednesday until 3:00 am this morning. Then I became angry.

(9)     I prayed and read my Bible very heavily for 3 hours. I have to remember to read more and pray longer every day. He answered my prayers. I am not depressed, I am not crying, and I feel I can conquer the world today. If someone tells me it is Bi-polar, (if I see you) I will personally slap you stupid.

(10) God bless us all.